Depression?

I wonder...?

I'm rather moody lately.

Feeling at the lowest of myself dragging for one whole week.

Feeling emptiness encircles me...

Feeling unloved....

But still...i successfully

- finished up all the oncall-cases with TokKi (nick name for our Guru of the department).

-in the verge of completing another sets of oncall-cases with a cool-Akak (another nick for young-and-vibrant new lecturer in the department)

-submitted an abstract for poster presentation for this coming Pathology conference in KB

-cucuk-ed 7 patients for fine-needle-aspiration cytology on-call duties

And today is Friday...no need to go to work...

Yet I'm still feeling down........

Arghh.....don't like to have this tumbling rumbling emotion....

It's definitely nothing to do with that time of the month.....

Arghhh!!!!

Same ol' excuses....

Alasan:  Busy.

Walaupun yang sebenarnya saya amat-amat rajin membaca tapi, bukan textbook Surgical Pathology yang saya kena baca cover-to-cover tu.  Saya amat rajin tahap cemerlang, mengikuti blog-blog politik dengan penuh interest di sepanjang 3 PRK lepas, dan sebelum itu, dan insyaAllah selepas ini juga.  Cuma, idea-idea saya untuk update blog saya, hanyalah setakat di dalam kepala sahaja.  Tak terlepas ke jari jemari untuk saya menaip dan coretkan dalam blog saya ini.  :).  Inilah saya dapat simpulkan, saya mewarisi sedikit genetik dari Papa saya yang gemar tentang hal-hal kemasyarakatan, termasuklah politik semasa.  Cumanya, saya tidak terlibat secara langsung, bukan seperti Papa saya.

Hari ini, hari Jumaat 10hb April.

Nanti saya sambung semula.  Nak pergi Billion.....

Tahun Baru 1430H dan 2009

Tahun 2009.
Umur dah makin berkurang.
Bekal masih tak cukup.
Takutnya.

Azam?
Kena jadi rajin dalam segala aspek....
Ke arah menjadi muslimah yang cemerlang....
Mampu kah?
Kenalah rajin berusaha...

InsyaAllah.....

Esok 10 Muharram 1430, jangan lupa......

Disember 2008

Memang busy.

Tak sempat nak update sokmo.

Awal bulan: 

On call

Raya haji

Tengah bulan: 

Mertua, adik-adik ipar, biras dan anak-anak sedara lepak KB.

Satu-satunya anak jantan, telah rela di'korban'kan.....(cerita selanjutnya akan menyusul)

On call lagi.

Hujung bulan:

Kalut siapkan report slides.

Perabih cuti tahunan-balik Kuale, gi Pulau Pinang, balik PJ

Sekarang, melepak di Kelana Jaya.  

Beli Macbook (white one lah...not the new one or MacAir).

Buku patologi dan assignment dissertation masih tidak terusik.

Plan hari ini, mungkin ke KLCC.

Salam Maal Hijrah 1430

Selamat tahun baru 2009

Apa azam baru anda? (atau memperbaharui azam lama [seperti yang saya buat tiap kali tukar tahun kalendar Islam dan Masehi... :D] )

Hari Raya Qurban

Masih belum terlambat untuk saya ucapkan "Selamat Hari Raya AidilAdha" kepada semua yang menjenguk blog saya ni.
Raya Haji tahun ini turn kampung saya di Besut, Terengganu.
Sempena dengan hari raya ni juga, saya dan hubby serta mama dengan bantuan makcik-makcik pakcik-pakcik telah meng-organise-kan majlis '5-in-1' bertempat di rumah makcik (sepupu mama) di Kampung Wakaf Raja, Pasir Puteh Kelantan.

Majlis '5-in-1' adalah bersempena
1) Hari Raya Qurban
2) Majlis kesyukuran-lulus periksa 1st year, hubby lulus Phd, masuk rumah baru di KB (kalau buat di KB, tak ramai yang akan dtg, sebab alasan jauh....), aqiqah (anak-anak sepupu)
3) Majlis tahlil
4) Majlis Darwish yang akan disunatkan 14hb ni
5) Majlis bertindik telinga Nabilah :D (selalunya orang buat untuk baby-majlis naik buaian...)

Dipendekkan cerita, gambar-gambar di bawah ni tells the story....

Nabilah bergaya dengan subang baru nya (bila 'ditembak' telinga kirinya, satu deret kedai dengar dia menjerit dan menangis...."Adoiii SAKIT LAHHHHHH!!!!!"

10 Zulhijjah, hujan on-off sepanjang hari raya. Anak-anak saya bergaya dengan boots, dan berpayung, main air hujan.

Hadiah cenderamata dari kanak-kanak yang bakal disunat dan kena tindik telinga.

Ada pulut kuning, bunga telur dan goodies yang lain. Macam majlis kawin plak kan? :D

AJK dapur yang sibuk menyiapkan hidangan.

Nasi panas....

Air teh suam...

Lauk-pauk: Gulai kawah, acar, keresek (ayam+jantung pisang), budu& ulam, sambal, ayam goreng, pengat ubi.

AJK Makan : Makcik-makcik, mama dan adik bongsu perempuan.

AJK Makan : Pakcik-pakcik dan orang-orang surau.

Jadiknya, hari raya haji tahun ini sederhana meriah, sebabnya, kami tak cukup korum. Adik no2 balik ke rumah mertua di Tangkak,qada turn raya puasa hari tu. Adik no3, tak balik ke kampung sebab cuti sehari je. Adik bongsu di Dungun, tak balik sebab exam dan takut sangkut banjir di mana-mana (dia raya dengan maggi je...sadisnyaaa). Akibatnya, kami yang mana ada tu, tak berapa ada mood sangat nak beraya beriya-iya, jadi pagi raya tu, mama goreng mee je. Lepas solat sunat, gi rumah sedara-mara sebelah mama, dan dapat ler makan ketupat itu ini sikit.

Wokeh, back to work.

Saya pun tak berapa perasaan sgt nak raya sebab kes-kes oncalls lepas, masih tak abis-abis...arghh.....

Laterlah.....

Lamanya tak menulis.....

Fuh, dah dekat 2 bulan tak update blog ni.

Busy? Yup, alasan yang sama.

Hari ni 21 November 2008, adalah hari bosan saya.

Semenjak dua menjak ni, ada extra stress dalam kepala saya ni. Arghhh....

Okehlah, summary sejak lepas raya.

Sekitar raya Aidilfitri:

-Raya di Kuale Kangsor. Nengok krenah adik-adik ipor dan anok-anok buah.

-Raya tige, balik Kelana Jaya. Tengok peel adik-adik dan anok-anok 'daro. 

-Balik Kota Bharu, opposite direction dengan orang-orang Kelate nok balik ke KayEl. Demo berderet sepanjang dari Gua Muse ko Karak.....

Lepas raya:

-Oncall x2.

-Tension, kes on call sebelum raya tak selesai lagi, dah on call semua, pastu on call lagi. Tup-tup, letak 3 rows set of cases yang tak beres!

-Cik abe gi Perth, conference.

-Kete buat hal, takdak airkon. Bocor! Anak2 bising (mami deme gak) panaih....

-Peperiksaan Kertas Bahasa Malaysia, LKM300. Lulus lisan. Bertulis, tak tau bila dapat result, tunggu dari Pulau Pinang.

-Serabut dengan preparation untuk research proposal presentation.  Belasah aje present. Haiyaa...sample size kena kira semula.....

November:

-Baru rasa boleh bernafas sikit.

-Kes oncalls semua dah beres, kecuali satu kes.  Bos masih dok pikior pasai tu!

-On call lagi.  Kes masih tak lesai....bos busy.

-Repair proposal, masih tunggu nak gi jumpa statistician. Buat-buat appointment, dia plak tetiba ada urgent meeting, satu hari suntuk.  Semput teman, 2 kali naik turun tingkat nak gi jumpak dia.

-Dapat results kursus exam 'Good Medical Practice', lulus.  La ni, dah dapat lesen untuk buat research. 

-Gi Pulau Pinang, kali pertama hadir kursus/seminar luar negeri Kelantan.  Selain dari lunch yang best, rendek-rendek kat pasar malam kat Ferringi adalah antara highlights kursus tu.  Gala dinner, next time, tak gi pun tak rugi apa.   Terjumpa Dr Nurul (NBB), sempat hi n bye aje.  Tak dan nak sembang panjang.

-Weekend ni, 2 wedding invitations.  Kira banyak la tu, sejak duk kat Malaysia ni.

-Khamis ni, case presentation dengan Jabatan Ortopedik.

Tension:

-Dah 6 bulan masuk 2nd year, makin banyak tak tau pasal pathology.  Kadar pembacaan adalah sangat rendah.  Tak baca, tak tau. Tapi tak insaf-insaf jugak.  

-Masalah rumah: 

• 3-3 bilik air ada problem arghhhhhh...........
  
• Bocor kat bilik Darwish, walaupun dah repair, gruphenya masih bermasalah, 
  
• Rumah macam tongkang pecah (kureng sket!), still considering getting a weekend cleaner, tapi mulut tak tertanya kat akak2 cleaners kat opis tu
  
• Very slow process of setting up an appointment dgn tokey kabinet.  Kena buat kabinet dapur dan bilik tidor sebelum new year.  Tak larat tengok keserabutan ini!
• Kebun orang belakang rumah tu dah mula men'yemak', hari tu nak anak cik U dok melingkor kat pokok serai saya....arghhhh "Makcik!! Takkan la tebaih kebuh time nak sambut deroyan luruh je..!!!!"  Terpikior nak buat benteng tinggi kat tembok belakang tu.

-Next week on call lagi.  Tapi takpe, saya akan berikan majoriti daripada kes kepada bebudak first year Master. Saya amik yang saya rasa nak je....wahahahah...(kekonon nak selamat diri dari disoaljawab oleh the on call Prof!)

Ingatkan time dok obersea dulu je, negara 4 musim.  

Dok negera bulan terang ni pun, 4 musim.  Musim panas, musim buah, muruh luruh (abis daun-daun deroyan belakang rumah masuk laman kami) dan juga musim salji cayor(cair).  

La ni, ghaso srupo time winter kat UK dulu.  Mendung je.  Padang bola depan ghumoh ni dah jadi tasik.  Jalan-jalan nak keluar dari kawasan ni dah naik ayor.  Itu pasat saya suggest kat abe suh beli kete 4WD, tinggi.  Takdak lah ayor nak masuk exhaust kete bila ayor melimpah ke tengah jalan.

Orite lah.

Kena chiow dulu.

Cik Abe dah balik dari Jumaat....

Nak bersiap gi kenduri kat ghumoh sebeloh tu....

Later lah....

25 Ramadan 1429

Sedikit hari lagi, Ramadhan akan meninggalkan kita. 

Sedihnya.

Tapi, tertanya hati ini, sempurnakah ibadat Ramadhanku tahun ini?

Allah hu akhbar......

Jiwa yang lalai ini sering terlupa......

Saya agak sibuk dalam bulan September ni.

Begitu juga kawan-kawan di pejabat.

Yang seniors, sibuk dengan menyiapkan thesis masing-masing.

Yang juniors (kami ber3) sibuk dengan oncalls.

Nampak semuanya serabut...bersabut...dan menyabut.....wahahaha.....

Projek selepas balik dari cuti raya:

1) On callsx2 

2) Postcallsx2

3) Untuk menyiapkan research proposal, yang perlu dibentangkan 30hb Oktober.

4) Dan yang baru dapat tahu, ujian Bahasa Malaysia 22hb Oktober....!!!!!

Harap dapat bernafas dalam kesesakan tugasan di pejabat!

Akhir kata,

Selamat menyambut Aidilfitri.

Maaf Zahir Batin.

Semoga Syawal 1429 adalah bulan bahagia untuk semua....

Aminnnnn......

Laterlah......

19 Ramadhan 1429

Kemaskini jam 937pagi.

Anak-anak telah bangun. Deme dah melukis kad birthday.

Entry asal:

Haru betul.  Beriya-iyalah saya ini menaip entry darihal majlis berbuka puasa di kampung pada minggu lepas.  Tetapi disebabkan kesilapan teknikal, habis semua entry hilang.  Sabar sahajalah!  Untuk mengubat hati yang geram, biarlah saya tunjukkan dua gambar antara pokok-pokok  di sekeliling rumah saya ini.  Sabar, sabar.

Yang merah itu cili

Yang putih itu susu

Happy birthday to me

Semoga tenang selalu

Aminnnn............

Laterlah!  

Lagi...

Have this burning urge of writing on this wonderful wonderful morning.  So here is my second posting for today.

So much for trying to improve my BM writing skill.  But it was an attempt right?  I'll do it again, in the next and the next postings, InsyaAllah.

What I wanted to blog out is, the story behind the Sudirman's song that I've placed in my bunyi-bunyian box.  It was the first raya song I heard on the radio, for one raya season.  That was  back in 1993/94 during my matrix 1 (stop calculating my age hahha).  It was around early hours in the morning, about 1 or 2 o'clock.  Guess what happened?  I burst into tears.  Sloppy sobbing me.  I was only  in Kulim at that time.  The next incident, I played this song, during raya season in 1996/97, I was spending my summer in Hobart, Tasmania.  I didn't go back to Malaysia that summer holiday.  Again, I bursted into tears.  So, in short, I have a soft spot for this song.

As a conclusion, I prefer listening to the old raya songs sang by the original artistes.  I  have difficulties, accepting the new raya songs.  What about you?

English tak pandai, BM ntah ke mana? (Saya lah tu)

Duhhhh.......

Laterlah......

17 Ramadhan 1429

Pada awal pagi 17 Ramadhan, bersamaan Nuzul Quran (cuti bagi negeri Kelantan, negeri-negeri lain saya tak pasti).  Bersempena dengan bulan yang mulia ini, banyak-banyaklah membaca ayat-ayat suci Al Quran (peringatan kepada diri sendiri juga).  Merata-rata tempat di sekitar bandar di negeri bulan terang ini, banyak kain rentang, tertulis dengan jelas dan nyata, "Banyakkanlah Bersedekah", "Banyakkanlah Membaca Al Quran" dan sebagainya.  Begitulah yang terpampang di sekeliling saya, moga-moga dengan peringatan itu, akan menggerakkan saya untuk melaksanakannya.

Pada pagi 17 Ramadhan ini juga, udara segar di persekitaran rumah.  Burung-burung berkicauan, kedengaran suara-suara binatang ternakan dari jauh dan dekat, memecah keheningan pagi.  Tertanya-tanya juga saya, bilakah saatnya, 'udara di sekeliling akan menjadi lebih segar, dan langit menjadi lebih cerah' selepas berlalunya 16 Ramadhan?

Lagi dua hari, saya akan berkurangan usia.  Selalunya orang mengatakan bertambah usia.  Dari segi angka, sememangnya akan meningkat nombornya.  Tapi kalau dari segi logik (buah fikiran saya sendiri, tanpa dipengaruhi oleh pendapat orang lain), sebenarnya usia kita semakin berkurang setiap tahun.  Ajal kita telah ditentukan sejak azali.  Jika tertulis, saat roh terpisah dari jasad, tidak dilewatkan walau sesaat pun.  Contohnya, menggunakan kiraan matematik, sudah tertulis ajal itu pada umur 50 tahun, dan umur ketika waktu ini adalah 34, jadi 50-34 ialah 16 tahun.  Sepanjang masa yang ada itu, sebaik-baiknya kita cuba perbaikkan amalan kita sebagai persediaan untuk kehidupan yang lebih kekal di akhirat sana.  Saya akui, tiada siapa yang tahu, bilakah Izrail akan menghampirinya, tapi yang penting adalah membuat persediaan.  Umpama menduduki peperiksaan tanpa membuat ulangkaji, pasti akan terkial-kial untuk menjawab, walaupun soalannya senang.

Saya sedang mengikuti kursus Bahasa Melayu di USM.  Ini adalah antara syarat untuk saya mengesahkan jawatan saya.  Memandangkan, sepanjang kelas Bahasa diadakan, saya hanya dapat hadir pada kelas sahaja,  kerana sibuk dengan tugas-tugas di pejabat.  Dengan menulis blog dalam bahasa Melayu 'standard', saya berharap saya dapat memperbaiki gaya penulisan dan penggunaan ayat serta nahu yang betul, sebagai persediaan untuk peperiksaan yang akan diadakan dalam bulan November atau Disember nanti.

Moga-moga Allah memberkati perjuangan kita ini.

Sekian untuk kali ini.
Wassalam.

1st Ramadhan 1429

Alhamdullillah. 

Ramadhan is back.  

I love this month of the year.

I am more relax and content when it comes to Ramadhan.  That is the beauty of this wonderful wonderful month.

I was born in Ramadhan. According to mama, my entrance into this temporary world is in the midst of azan Maghrib for iftar.

2nd of Ramadhan 1429, I'll turn 35 (according to Moslem calender if I'm not calculating wrongly).

This mean, my years of being alive is shorten for a year.

Wallahu'alam.

Have a great Ramadhan. It's a month of blessing.

Life doesn't have to be limited just because you're berpuasa.

Later lah

08/08

Some people believe that 8 is a lucky number.  Our house is Pt 1048 (coincident je ni).

This 8th month of 2008, has brought some pain into my heart and tears into my eyes.

Early 08/08

My little girl was admitted to the hospital.  Saddened by it, but I knew it will happen some day. She had cold then exacerbate the un-diagnosed asthma.  Or should be better called, 'hyperactive pulmonary disease' (because it may go away as the child gets taller).  She was breathing very hard for air, not improving despite 5 time nebulisers and one shot of steroid.  So, we ended up in the ward that night.  Kids will always be kids, she felt better in 24 hours, started running around the ward despite her wheezy chest and demanded to go home. And then, came the fella, who talked to me and explained bla bla this and that, but forgot to introduce himself.  Who the heck was he? MO? HO? Registrar?  I knew he wasn't the specialist.  This is one crap thing about the local medical education, they forgot to teach the students to introduce themselves to the patients.  Sucks!  I'll make sure I convey this message to all my students.  The system has to change.

To make matter worse, I was on call for Histopathology that week.  First day, my fellow senior covered for me.  The rest of the week, I determined to do the on calls.  Too bad, the first two days processing the specimen, I couldn't concentrate.  Felt so bad that I had to leave my little girl at the tadika, eventhough she was improving clinically.  Felt so bad, that I couldn't finish up reading the slides within that week.

2nd and  3rd week of 08/08

Had to attend intensive course of basic statistics, research methology and good clinical practice.  More stress into my tiny brain.  I haven't started anything for my dessertation/master thesis.  My supervisor left it to me to decide on whatever subject I wanted to do, though he did specify something of soft tissue tumour.  In my own version, he might as well said "Lu pikir la sendiriiiiii....."

Postcalls slides still not finished.

More stress!!

Weekend between the courses, I had to fly back to KL to settle unfinished family business.  Ran up and down (literally of course) the PNB building, went to 4 banks in a day.  Trying to sort out the heritage. Encountered some personal problems.  Boo Hoo..... 

(Update 1/9/2008- The previous entry has been deleted to maintain privacy.  I meant what I have written.  It's for me to keep.  My apologies)

4th week 08/08

On call again.

This time cytology.  Stuck with the specialist who is a 'chipsmore' of the department.  'Kejap ada, sokmo takde'. I'm still grasping the basic of diagnosing by cytology.  It's going to be a very long post-calls week.

And the kids are messing the house.  Again and again.

Only the power of blackmailing made them tidy up their toys' room.  'Tidy your toys or no visit to KB Mall or Tesco", is it fair?

I'm tired.

I'm really really tired.

Have a nice weekend.

Merdeka!

Most of all, Ramadhan al Mubarak!

Selamat melaksanakan ibadat berpuasa dan semoga Allah memberikan kekuatan kepada diri kita yang lemah ini.

Laterlah....

Duh!!!

Okay, yes, I admit, I watched the debate last night.

But it sucks, firstly, the new "advanced" astro channel still has the glitch when it comes to bad weather. Me and hubby have missed many words coming out from the debators. So much so for giving all astro viewers the golden new cards!

Secondly, it sucks, because what have been 'war-warkan', was not truely delivered out.

Topic of debate is 'the fuel price hike'.
But no no, it was a moment for a few personal attacks.
Sucks!

Thirdly, it sucks, because politicians, they can NEVER answered what was asked. Are they so dumb that they can't give a straight forward genuine answers OR they are just too smart that they can twist their words and answer the question indirectly. I guess they must have both criteria, that's why they are who they are.

I'm truly sick with all these.

Sucks!

Cerita about my garden lagi bagus...

Later lah....

Silap

Haiya...just realised, I've mistaken yesterday as 'Tuesday 15th' because it was 2nd day of my working week. So at 9pm last night, hubby watched Chuck on AXN. No debate last night. As for me, I was drained, talked about 2 hours in tutorial/small group discussion with the 2nd year undergrads during their practical/lab session. Adui...all my saliva dried up! But it made my day.

Today, yahuuuuu I finally finished all my on-call cases. Great! Now can play 'tuang-tuang' (or how do u spell it?) during office hours. Hahaha..iye la tu. Got to get a dissertation topic soon. Next month, presentation research proposal in the department.

Today, again, still under the weather, ache inside my head. Blocked nose. May be I should take the rest of the afternoon off. Balik tidor, hopefully can make things better.

****************************************************************************

Kids' talks on baby

Miss N shouted full heartedly in the car one day, "Mummy, bila mummy nak dapat baby??"
Master D immediate reply, "Mana boleh dapat baby, mummy tak belanak lagi!"
Mummy at that time was busy looking for a parking spot in KB Mall, and wondering, how come out of the blue Miss N is bising-bising for an adik.


One fine day, again same question from Miss N "Mummy, bila nak dapat baby?".
Mummy cheeky answer "Nanti mummy gi hospital ke supermarket ke, mummy beli baby, nak?"
Miss N "MANA ADA BABY JUAL KAT SUPERMARKET!!!"


Another fine night, during dinner.
Miss N gave an instruction "Mummy kena makan banyak-banyak, nanti perut besar, baru ada baby...."
Mummy answered "Ayah tu perut besar, sure ada baby"
Master D immediate reply "Ayah tu boy. Boy mana boleh belanak! Apa la mummy ni"


Don't know why miss N is obsessed of having a smaller figure than her at home. Maybe it's because, she got 3 new cousins this year, and that one day I made a mistake of saying......
(This was while we were back in Kuala Kangsar for a long weekend)
On the arrival day, holding the latest niece, born same date but 4 years later, as Miss N.

Mummy jokingly said" Kita bawak balik baby ke KB, nak?"( to see if she's jealous or not)
Miss N "Nakkkkkk........." with a really big smile.

Departure day

Miss N "Mummy, kenapa baby tak pack lagi beg? Mana botol susu dia? Mana nappy dia?"
Mummy " Eh, baby tak ikut la. Nanti siapa nak jaga dia?"
Miss N "Mummy dan Nabilah la jaga dia"
Mummy "Tak boleh. Kesian mama baby nanti"
Miss N already start crying out loud "Kata hari tu, nak bawak baby balik KB..."

Mummy...Alamak!!!!

To summarise:
1)The kids think 'makan banyak-banyak' will results in 'perut besar' equals to 'ada baby in the tummy', applies only to girls, not boys.

2) Don't talk no sense to kids, they are smarter than we think they are.
3) Master D and Miss N, cannot say 'R' collectly.
4)Miss N demands for a baby sister. Master D demands for a little brother.
5) Mummy is ignoring all these requests until some day.....wahahahaha...


Later lah....

It's only the 2nd day of working week

Today is Monday.
2nd working day for us in Kelantan.
But, in my mind, 2nd day working equals to Tuesday, not Monday.
It's hard to redo what has been imprinted in this brain since many many years, that first working day is Monday. Despite, having been here for almost 2 years, I still have difficulties adjusting my mind to it.
In contrast, my brain can easily accepted that Friday is the new weekend.
How our nerve cells can play with our mind, for leisure issue, can be easily installed and act upon. More serious matters, has to be rewrite over and over and over...

I'm bored.
Not that I don't have any work to do.
Of course I do.
But I'm just bored.
Perhaps, I'm getting a dose of the Monday blues.

What have been happening in the last few weeks?
The on-calls.
The post-calls.
Making the diagnoses.
Fulfilling the obligations of being a kakak sulung, making sure that my not-so-little-anymore brother is safely registered and sent off to Politeknik Dungun.
Completing the scholarship agreement with KPT.
Registering my soon-to-be-taller-than-me son into a private Islamic school.
Met the family solicitor regarding pesaka matters.
End of the day, my energy level has one bar left!

Mama and all-grown-up-youngest sis is coming this Thursday. And the house is still in a mess! Never mind lah, got another 1 1/2 day to clean up.
My little girl not feeling so well.
So is her ayah.
And her mummy, is under the weather too.

I can't be bothered reading up on what I've been told to read up on.
I can't be bothered searching for journal articles to start off my Master's dissertation.

It must be the cold virus that's doing this to me.
Yup, blame everything else but oneself.
Is that justice?
What ever lah....tonight, must watch Astro , at 9pm. Probably it is one of the moments that the whole nation has been waiting for, for a very long time.

Laterlah...
*sniff*

If and only if, after the debate, fuel price goes down, also with price of other barang-barang, kan best? I reckon, it still be at 'this pace and will continue at this pace, until middle of next 2 years' Duh!!

BeeZee

I have been busy. Same ooo same old excuse.

So much for being jumping over the moon for passing the first year exam (still I'm very bersyukur), the reality is, 2nd phase of Master of Pathology is hectic-er than the 1st phase. Of course, back then I can just run away from responsibilities, chose to deal only simple cases, left the big thing to the seniors. Now, no no. Big or small the specimens sent by the surgeons/physicians, I have to process, read them under the microscope, garu kepala when the features are not fimiliar, flip the 3kg textbooks (just for one organ system!) and feeling stupid when not able to answer simple undergraduate-questions from the guru-of-the-department. On top of that, tried very hard to answer as politely as possible to the MOs or HOs when they called asking what are the final diagnosis. They ask nicely, we answer nicely lah. Some hot-headed jack-ass will be rude up their small brain, asking for report to be done, itu jam, itu time. Hard cases take time to be solved. Duh....try staying in our department for a few months, then they know what I'm babbling about.

Ok lah, that is busy about work.

Outside work?

Occupied+obssessed with my backyard garden. Planted some corns,chillies, tomatoes and kailan (In keeping with the 'changing the lifestyle' campaign). Hopefully they turn out ok. So far, the lemongrass, kunyit, limau purut, bendi and onions are doing great. I experimented sowing coriander, cumin and fennel directly into the ground. None seems to be seedling. My hypothesis, the seeds went into the tummy of this one homeless burung puyuh that came around our garden a few times last week. Dunno. Maybe.(Such a cruel thing to accuse of a homeless bird-atleast I'm not accusing it sodomising my little garden!)

Frontyard, got a few plants given by aunty and uncles, blooming gracefully in the pots. Still need a few more pots to place those that are potless. Pot ke vase? Whatever lah. FIL gave us a bunch of pokok puding last time we when back. Got so excited, I planted them into the open ground immediately upon arrival from Kuala Kangsar. So much so, KB weather is so hot and dry, the pokok became dehydrated and almost lifeless. Felt stupid,(again!), I now put them under the porch, the stems are being rendam into water mixed with penggalak-akar. Only when the roots are out, I put them where I wanted. I hope it works.

Yesterday, my hubby bought some more fruit trees (jambu seedless, limau kasturi, limau bali, kelapa mawar/madu[the short stature coconut tree]) for our garden (thanks hunny for keeping the promise). I love it. Can't wait to plant them this evening. However, my fingers are not as green as my late-grandma. Anything she planted,sure to grow nicely. Me? Some times only lah. I got this weird habit, every time I was pregnant-I went crazy about gardening, and planting. Eh, no lah, I'm beta-HCG negative. No bun in the oven ya....


Oklah.

Later lah...

PS: I miss my tulips and daffodils that I planted while I was pregnant with Nabilah.

100%

Bestnya kalau gaji saya juga naik 100%.

Bestnya kalau gaji kakak cleaner yang muncul dalam Bersamamu TV3 tempoh hari juga naik 100%, dari RM450 ke RM900.

Bestnya kalau gaji semua orang ,kaki-dan-tangan awam atau swasta, semuanya naik 100%

Bestnya!

Bestnya!

Bestnya!

Itu kalau....


Tapi 'Saya terserah......'
Tidor lagi bagus....ZZzzzzzzz



Laterlah....
Banyak keje ni...

Dua Kosong Kosong Lapan

11th June 2008, marked the date of our 8th wedding anniversary.

Despite the fuel hike, we still proceed with our plans for "the anniversary and post exam" weekend. Thursday evening, afterwork, off we left KB for Kuala Terengganu.

KT? Besssttt. A city near the Terengganu River and by the South China Sea. Many beautiful new buildings. Spacious roads. Many recreation areas. Relaxing with sound of the waves and smell of the sea breeze. No wonder, my papa wanted to come back to his birthplace, Terengganu Darul Iman.

Masjid Terapung di Seberang Takir.

A new building across the river opposite Pasar Kedai Payang. A pakcik jaga told me when I asked him, "Orhang kapung dokleh gi situ". I wonder, bangunang apa tu...lawo...

Masjid Kristal from the bridge

Masjid Kristal in Pulau WangMang

Replica of Masjid Aqsa in Taman Tamadun Islam

I think this is a replica of Blue Mosque

Bulatan Batu Bersurat

Some where mid town of Kuala Terengganu

Masjid Sultan Abidin also known as White Mosque, built between 179*-1808

Istana Maziah next door to the White Mosque

Kids' activities on Friday and Saturday (sunburnt anak aku!)

Dulu 2000 berdua, kini 2008 berempat.

Dulu 'sekilo', kini 'berkilo-kilo' (talking about the body weight)

Happy Anniversary

We don't see many of new awesome big big building in KB. State gov don't have money for luxuries, better make the kampung people more happy!

To those who have never placed their feet on Terengganu's soil, must go lah!

(So many big big buildings, wonder if all the office spaces are all occupied? Another wishful thinking while we were there, 'eh I tot the fuel price are cheaper here in KT....' Dream onnnn!!!! What la uu....)

Laterlah....

Goodbye

Our pet ToTo, his photo in this blog page, has left us last week. I was sad. I have paid a little attention to him because of my exam, but I still make sure I fed him and changed his water.

Farewell ToTo.

(Darwish asked me as buried ToTo in the backyard "Kenapa mummy tanam ToTo, dia bukan pokok?" How to answer lor.......)

Pink Monday

Sounds odd, but I haven't had a color-coded Mondays for a long while. I chose to title this entry pink Monday, obviously it is the color of the tudung I'm wearing today.

Not much excitement happened today. Another quiet day at the office (for now, not complaining).

I've started on-call as from today. This week, cytology, means I have to do fine needle aspiration of any lumps on the superficial parts of the patients. In layman's words, I just cucuk-cucuk the lump to get some cells out. 2 people were my victims today. I was out of practice, and sweated like a ..... during the procedure. As an excuse, I again blame the small-ness of the procedure room, that had made me perspired profusely ( a little exaggeration here).

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Funny thing or not so funny things happened last week. They was funny because my-mom's son-in-law was trying to be Bob-the-builder and green-gardener. Fortunately, it did not happen on the same day though.

To start off with, this new house of ours, the so-called 'Villa Titanic Pecah'(have yet to take some photos and show it off, will do soon, insyaAllah), have this problem with water. The water tank is placed about 1 foot higher than the one in the phase 1 house. Kelantan Water has low pressure, so the was always problem of water shortage to both of the phase 2 houses. To solve this problem, we have to add another tank as an extra storage, and use an electric-pump to pump out water from new tank to the original tank. Initially, my mom's son law, insisted on doing all this by himself. But later, he changed his mind, and on Monday, called the pakcik plumber to set everything up.

300 gallon tank RM 180
electric pump RM280
connection pipes and etc RM120
service RM 100
Able to have a long shower, priceless.

RM100 went into the pakcik's pocket.

2 days later, one of the two taps at our kitchen sink rosak. My mom's son-in-law decided to fix the tap himself. Guess what happened? He broke the tap attachment of some-sort. So again, we have to call the pakcik plumber.

RM10 went into the pakcik's pocket.

Long weekend, on Saturday. We bought pokok longan and pokok limau purut. I planted the pokok limau. My mom's son-in-law, was excited about planting our new pokok longan. Cangkul and cangkul, he hit the main water pipe to the end-of-the road neighbour. Haiyaa...what an event to end the beautiful Saturday. Again call the pakcik plumber. Only after Maghrib, the pakcik arrived with his other 2 fellow relatives. With light from a torch, they managed to fix the leakage. Good thing that he was willing to come at that time of the day!

Up: My herbal garden; Below: The longan tree

RM10 went into the pakcik's pocket.( RM10 given to his assistant)

[RM14 the cost buying the pipe adapter (what ever)]

Moral of the story: Never underestimate a plumber. They are trained to fix the pipes and tap some RM from people like us. Without them, we might have water problem. Without us, they won't have things to fix. Life is balanced (sounds like Mufasa in Lion King ).

Have a wonderful day.

Later lah....